More than a year since my last post... Geez...

Anywho, updates.

Not going to school, waiting till I turn 23, so the GOVERNMENT will reconise me a broke indenpendant and will give me funding for school... I live on my own but the government wont give me money cause I'm "still" considerd to be a "dependant" of my parents.. Lame huh?

Anywho, however I don't have money problems anymore... since like november and probably wont for some time.. weird, we're in the middle of a recession and I'm good.

Trying plan for a art gallery in June.... Hmmm...

Should be doing laundry right now, cleaning the house and studying for the server trainer test I'm taking randomly in the next month or so.... but I'm online reading fanfics. I can't seem to pull myself away....

I lost 15 lbs between august and october last year.. then gained it all back and then some between december and now... I weigh the most I ever have in my life. 240lbs.. But no one believes that I actually weigh that much,(My body holds weight well for some reason, so I look like 190ish/ 180ish) though they do acknowegh that I have gained weight.... It's killing me because between august to now, I'VE gone from being "a really active happy person" to someone who doesn't enjoy evening "moving", it sucks. I've fighting myself mostly to move, I miss the "enjoyment" of it.. I really dont understand why I stoped enjoying it...

My Ex-Boyfriend is now my roomate currently. Not cause I need one, he's just despratly trying to finish school, and didn't have a new place to stay after his lease was up last december... he was supposed to chill with me till he could find another place, but he's still here. And I've got a confimation from him a couple weeks ago that he's not really even trying to find a place to stay or a new apartment... Ugh.. and him being here re-put me through some emotional damage because It's in my face why we broke up, we both truely want 2 different things from each other and our relationship, He's never been "In-Love" before and certainly isn't in love with me, and he treats me way to nicely.. ugh, makes a girl think she has chance, even when I know the truth.

Plus some people encourage the fantasy without meaning too, like the other day, one of my co-workers said he thinks the guy might be waiting to propose to me.... and that gave me a hugh rush for about a minute till reality came back, and I explained to my co-worker that it wasn't possible, I know from the way he looks at me that I'm not the one for him, and he's never shown any outward signs of being effected by me in such a way...

Or just as bad, a couple people are outspoken to me, questioning why I haven't kicked him out, and I agree with them because that would be easier, AND at one point I did blow up on him and kick him out.... but he didn't move out, and well... thats also not the answer either. He's not some low-life, he's just a guy trying to finish that last couple months of college, and I can guess at how hard that is.

Man... I really wish I was more grown up some how.. and just could grow out of feelings that are only hurting me. ::sigh:: Fantasy hurts cause it's a lie.. and Reality hurts because it's not like my fantasys and dreams...


Oh God, when are you just gunna kill me? Ugh!

Probably my biggest Resolution, that I'm most excited about... I wont even put up here, because I'll never ever give anyone the opportunity to steal my ideas that mean to most to me again..

Anywho.. Mostly... I'm going to be myself this year, no matter what anyone thinks. I've realized I wont have real people in my life till I'm real myself. and the cool thing about that is all the fake people will just float away like butterflies. XD

I'm also going to follow my dreams passionately this year, instead of writing them off as hobbies. I've realized that my dreams are a huge part of who I am and why I'm alive. Without them I'm not really here, in existence. The drive for this is I haven't really been here for the past 2 years... because I thought I had to be someone else, and do something else with my life. Be like everyone and society. I had the most lovely wake up call by the best Angel ever. LOL! So a starving Artist life for me. XD

I'm also going to go to school, no matter what. Money has been a issue for a while, but I'll never go to school if I keep waiting.

And I'm going to move to Fort Lauderdale, where I'll work on my dream and go to school. I get caught up in everyone else's lives in my hometown. I need to focus on my own.

Book Meme
1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 4 sentences on your LJ along with these instructions.
5. Don’t you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.

Vultrix:
NP PLOT? NO PROBLEM!: A LOW-STRESS, HIGH-VELOCITY GUIDE TO WRITING A NOVEL IN 30 DAYS.

Sentance: Get away from those pages as quickly as possible. Don't worry how awkwardly or clumsily you do so. The very life of your book is at stake. As soon as you look down upon the previous pages, the doom will be upon you.


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WTF??

Tarot.com sent me a lovely spam letter. Trying to get me to buy a past life report or something...

However the middle of the letter was talking about last night's "Full Moon"... and this is what it said.

""You've probably heard the old saying, "If you don't know what you want, you probably won't get it." It's true. Quite often our deepest desires go unfulfilled because we've lost touch with them. Distractions, forgetfulness, the loss of clear vision can lead to frustration in your most important relationships ... and get in the way of attracting the love you need.

This week, the Full Moon is in deep and passionate Scorpio, an ideal time to explore your capacity for intimacy. Scorpio is one of the most soul-searching signs of the zodiac ... and reminds us to dig deep and get to the bottom of things, especially when it comes to buried or unexpressed feelings.""

Hmmmm... So true, ya know. Soon as I realise something I want, speicfically, I usally get it in about a week or a month depending on what it is, and how much I want it. Just had to share. Nice to know the Moon's in Scopio...

Yeah yeah, Not even 2 hours have gone by and I'm posting again...

I'm makeing up for hiding from the world for a week.... anywho..
mmmmm... I'm doing something very naughty right now... Running all over the internet trying to see if the 4th episode of "Ouran High school Host Club" is out yet..

But thats because I haven't seen a new episode of Bleach in 2 WEEKS!!!! I'm want to start downloading the manga and read it, but I don't I'll have the time and enough room on my hard drive for that....

I ran across this little livejournal entrie by http://team7.livejournal.com/ and just sorta picked it up and pasted it here, to share with others, and so I wont have to save her page in my favorites...

(Am I a pirate? Maybe... I'm certainly not a Ninja though...)

Do you enjoy:

crossdressing?
situational humor?
crazy hijinks?
homoeroticism?
crack cocaine?

If you answered 'yes' to any or all of the above, Ouran High School Host Club just might be the manga for YOU.


<----TwinCEST Damnit!! ::cackles::


Ouran Koukou Host Club by Hatori Bisco. This is just crack. It's like Hana Yori Dango meets Sailor Moon or someting. Ouran High School is an exclusive school for the Rich & Privileged. Haruhi Fujioka is neither rich nor privileged. Her parents are divorced and her father, whom she stays with, works as a cross-dressing bar 'hostess,' leaving Haruhi to fend for herself most of the time. Haruhi has therefore developed an independent, matter-of-fact approach to life. She takes it in stride when she manages to get a scholarship to attend Ouran Gakuen, but her composure is rather dented when she opens the door to a room she thought was the library and finds herself confronting a group of boys posed ostentatiously on a luxury set, welcoming her to 'The Host Club.'

Because Haruhi is dressed in a male uniform (it's cheaper), the boys initially dismiss her. Until, that is, she manages to accidentally break a vase worth 8 million yen as she backs out of the room. In order to pay her debt, Haruhi is forced to join the host club, which is just what it sounds. A club composed of the most good-looking and talented boys in school who provide attention--not to mention ahem aesthetic edification--to bored, spoiled, ojousama fangirls. They're also batshit crazy, by the way. The craziest is probably the President, Suo Tamaki, who takes a shine on Haruhi *see below* whom he initially thought was a boy. Tamaki is a gigantic dork, pure and simple, and the rest of the club routinely play him for all he's worth. He and Kyoya, the Vice-President, are a riot. They call each other "Daddy" and "Mommy" though Kyoya is probably only pandering to Tamaki's strange whims, anyhow. Kyoya is the real brains behind the host club. He's the one who keeps tabs on Haruhi's debt (I believe it has now ballooned to 5 billion yen) and generally manipulates everyone else around him. He's so evil.

My favorite will have to be the famous Hitachin twins, though. Since they're identical and practically inseparable, their best-selling gimmick is Brotherly (read: Screamingly Incestuous) Love. *see below* They grope each other whenever they have the chance--which is all the time--and make dramatic declarations of love, to the delight of their adoring fans. But if girls prefer something more erm nuanced, there's always the Master-SlaveServant Relationship between Honey-senpai--who is the oldest in the club but looks and speaks as if he's ten--and the enigmatic Mori-senpai who carries Honey around like a porcelain doll.

Like I said, the manga is high. Hatori Bisco's previous work was "Sennen no Yuki" (A Thousand Years of Snow) which was pretty uneven, not to mention notoriously inconclusive. I think she's hit her stride with Host Club. It's definitely parodic though there are other elements to it which doesn't make the manga that easy to categorize or pin down, unless you were to compare it to Ai Morinaga's works or... who's the author of that crazy cosplay manga again?

Ouran Koukou Host Club is published in LaLa magazine. I think there are 7 volumes of the manga out already in Japan. The manga has been licensed by Viz; Volume 5 is the latest release. Studio Bones is doing an anime, which will premiere in April 2006 XD

If you're interested in checking this out, here's
Volume 1
Volume 2
Volume 3
Volume 4 Not complete.









I heard that viz (or was it tokyopop? I can't remember) is tranlateing it and the first 5 volumes are out now.. So I may pay a visit to Books-a-Million later this week. Just to read the 5th book though, cuz I'm broke! Again! ::sniff::

First of all... I'd like to point out that these Icons, are fucking badass.

Second, I started redo-ing the look and feel of my livejournal again, I just realised you can add links on the side! ::feels like a dork:: Should make moving around easier, for me at least. As I get used to this layout I'm probably going to be adding more links as I go along..

Third, I'm making a 'To Do' list for May, I have about 3-4 projects (fanart/manga/fanfics) I started back in either Febuary or March, and I haven't made much progress on a lot of them, so that's going to be showing up here in a couple days, as well as updates whenever I finish something on the list.

Fourth, I may be coimg to florida in June insted of July right now. My cousin in Utah can't come down in June because she's closing a deal on a house, but if no one is going to be here in July, she wont come. So everyone's changing their plans again. Now I have only have until the end of may to finish up the last of the house repairs insted of having at least till July, and I also have to find a dog sitter now. (oh goodie)

Fifth, I realise I hadn't read any Penny-arcade since march... so this comic is for shits and giggles...

Yup, watching yet another new anime series... It's one of the ones that is just starting over in Japan in their Spring line up. I've heard of the manga, lots of good word there, But I haven't read any of it. But I figured I check ou the series cuz hey! It free! lol!

OMG! It's soooo damn cute. The Humor reminds me of Sukisyo. In fact, the blonde dude reminds me of Matsuei from Sukisyo, only he's way more flamboant! lol!

The art reminds me of Utena, the way the characters move and stuff. Really cool...

And the Rich boys of the 'Host club' ::gushes:: sooo kawaii... yup. I'm addicted people. Now I have something esle to look forward to every week besides Bleach! lol!

I've got the first 3 episodes. and as soon as figure out how to cut them in 3 pieces, I'll put them on my Youtube.com account...

Wow, I love anime...

Reply with your name and ...
1. I'll respond with something random I like about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll name something we should do together.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me).
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal

Could not find my tarot cards ANYWHERE today, and I have a very sneaky suspion that my grandma has something to do with that.

So I pulled out "The White Magic Book, Fortune Telling at your fingertips..." to play with because I'm bored and in a divination mood...

Bwahahahahahahaha! This is Manny's and Sammy's favorite form of Divination, and since I have the book, they can no longer do it! hee hee hee...

Anywho, I'm posting up my findings because some of the things I don't want to forget, and the other I just find amuseing...

Question #6 Does the one I am thinking of, think of me?
Question acually asked: Does "blank" think of me?

A.)Samual ::best friend:: [cast: gemini] Thinks of you, and dreams of you sometimes...
B.)Holly ::sam's g/f:: [cast:Saturn] No, the mind is slowly occupied with worry...
C.)Robbie ::sam's drummer:: [cast: moon] Yes, being unable to avoid doing so.
D.)Shuana ::Robbie's wife:: [cast:mercury] Not just now, at odd moments, yes.
E.)Kat ::ex/key of hexus:: [cast:moon and virgo] Yes, being unable to avoid doing so. Yes, and is becomeing more puzzled...
F.)Wolf ::Kat's b/f:: [cast:mercury] Not just now, at odd moments, yes.
G.)Sammy ::ex/best friend:: [cast: gemini, mars, and sun] Thinks of you, and sometimes dreams of you. Too much for peace of mind. Never has, never will- in the way you expect.
H.)Marvin ::ex/drummer:: [cast:mercury] Not just now, at odd moments, yes.
I.)Manny ::ex/bassist:: [cast: Node, and sun] You would be satisfied if you knew how much. Never has, never will- in the way you expect.

Question #30 What do people think of me? (Group of people)
Question actually asked: What does "blank" actually think about me?

A.)FALLEN WITHIN ::Samual's band:: [cast:Jupiter] That you are easily influenced
B.) HeXuS ::ex/band:: [cast: cancer and gemini] That you need more self control. That in need, you would be a good friend.
C.)Robbie&Shuana [cast:jupiter and saturn] That you are easily influenced. That you are clever, but not kind...
D.)Holly&Sam [cast:libra] That you are strong willed and clear headed.
E.)Floridian Rock Kids [cast: cancer and gemini] see HeXuS....

Question #32 What does the immediate future hold for me?
Question acutallt asked: What will happen in the month of "blank"?

A.)April [cast:gemini] A change in occupation.
B.)May [cast:libra]Several small plesant happenings.
C.)June [cast:penis and virgo]Good fortune well deserved. Something that will please you much.
D.)July [cast:mercury]A letter you will be glad to see.

Question #39 What have I to expect during the next twelve months?
Question actually asked: What should I expect to happen during "blank'?

A.)Summer [cast:saturn] Increase in fortune.
B.)Fall [cast:libra and sagitaurus] A change in Quaters. A gradual improvement of all your circumstances.
C.)Winter [cast:mars and moon]Fresh Interests and new plans will have good results. Nothing that need disturb you in anyway.
D.)Spring [cast:penis]Some loss and some gain.
E.)Overall next 12 months [cast:jupiter and mars]The greatest Happiness in your life so far. Fresh interests and new plans will have good results.

Question #48 Have I already met my future life-partner?

Carrie's personal note:This was the first question I ever asked when Sammy and me got this book back winter/spring 2004/2005... the anwser was along the lines that I would meet "them" in about 2 years... I randomly still asked this question when I'm bored. And it anwsers similarily everytime... however it's anwer was a little more detailed this time...

A.)Mystery Person [cast:saturn, gemini, and libra]You affinity is in another country now. You have seen each other. You will meet in 5 Months.
::Carrie rasies her eyebrows:: They're in another country at the moment? That could mean that they are either rich (which I highly doubt) or are in the army... hmmm... and about 5 month s from now would be... August/September-ish... the start of college?? Hmmm... interesting... God! Please let it be a woman!!


Question # 87 Are my suspicions about... correct?

Carrie's note: I'm not sure if this was a good question to work with , but I kinda get the anwsers (but not mercury, that ones confuseing)
Actually questions asked

A.)Has Sammy and Manny Fucked? [cast:saturn and mercury]You are not altogether mistaken. Yes, but remember to understand all is to forgive all.
B.)Will Sammy and Manny have sex? [cast:libra, jupiter, and mars]Consider the matter again before you call them suspicious. Very nearly so. They are fairly accurate.
C.)Will Sammy and Manny persue a relationship together? [cast: Mercury and pensis]Yes, but remember to understand all is to forgive all. There is an atom of truth in them- the rest is prejustice.
D.)Will HeXuS break up? [cast:mercury and sun]Yes, but remember to understand all is to forgive all. Partly.
E.)Will Marvin kill himself? [cast: node]Wait a little while and you will be quite sure.
F.)Will Marvin join another band? [cast:mercury]Yes, but remember to understand all is to forgive all.

Sunao Fujimori fanart... (From "Sukisyo")

Yeah, I was running around today looking up yaoi music videos on YOUTUBE and ran into some from the anime"Loveless"... Wow, I'm like seriously hooked right now! Soooo kawaii!!

anywho, you can also watch the "episodes" of loveless on YOUTUBE which I didn't realise. I'm watching the first episode right now... oh so cool!

Here's a link that links to all 12 episodes on YOUTUBE!!
http://blogs.grab.com/ari91p/78299

I'm going to look up some elfen lied after I watch all of loveless!!

Later
Dark!Vultrix

Download it Damnit!!
I finally saw the movie FF-VII:Advent Children...

The Movie is pretty damn cool, except I was expecting a better plot, the previews I downloaded kinda up the suspence of the drama... but the storyline pales in comparision to the plot of the game...

Of course it can't have everything cuz It's only a hour and so many minutes long of a movie...

Fight scenes however:BAD FUCKING ASS!!! I LOVE THEM!! Tifa rocks my world damnit!! Vincent comes out as a SquareEnix version of Spawn (so cool!) The Turks had me at a loss of words (Rude and Reno are effing hot!! Reno acts just like Duo Maxwell!! ::squeals:: They should get Scott Mcnell to voice act for him!)

The bad guys are cool too, the short hair one(I don't know his damn name, the subtitles kept going by really fast...) has some cool moves...

Theres really not much I can say about the movie that won't spoil it... but It was damn cool, I recommend it. And it'll be a lot better in theaters than it was on my computer screen (Oh I can't wait till its dubbed!!)

However I can say this... almost evryone in this movie has a cell phone that looks similar to the handheld psp!! lol!! The ring tones are cute too!!

Oh yeah... a the guy in the wheelchair... not sephie-boy... but that doesn't mean he doesn't make a appereance in the movie... ::grin::

-Over and out-
-Dark!Vultrix-